Lights.
November 09, 2011 // 0 comments
Assalamualaikum everyone! Tonight Imma talk about today. I woke up at 9am. Asked my mum to send to the library cs I want to meet my penguin. Turns out mama's off to work already and there's nobody home to send me there. Texted Raidi, I told em' I can't go to the library. Then he replied " Yeke? I'll go to your house then " I said don't cs that'll be weird. Then he said something with a sad face. I'm starting to get scared if he's mad or sad bcs of me. Then I asked him why, he said nothing with a smile on every texts. It makes me like more worried cs he never replied all my texts with smileys on all of his text. I feel like he's lying to me tryna tell me 'it's okay' while I know it's not. Or maybe it is just my head talking nonsense.
A while after that, we stopped texting. At 2pm or someth, I texted him asking is he mad or not. He said no and I still can't believe em. Ugh my heart said no to his words at that time. Idk why. Then I said okay. He didn't replied my text. It was fine. But then at night, he didn't even text or call me. I'm freaking worried, I wanna text him but I'm scared if he's asleep or busy. So then he let me waited for him for 12 hours. Waiting for a text or a call from em. Nothing happened. He left me without a goodnight text. Today's a sad day for me. Bcs of EVERYTHING. EVERYTHING MAKES ME MAD, SAD, CRY AND CRAZY. And I'm not okay.
I need him. Now. I hate nights without a goodnight calls or texts. I just need him now to tell me that he's not mad or anything. I want him to say that everything's alright and just let everything be normal again. Just that.
Tonight's a disappointing night. And I'll go sleep with this tears now. Sorry for being so emo. Goodnight everybody.