Hi. Selama 2 3 hari ni saya tak ada mood. As usual, bcs of my friends. No, I don't blame them. I blame myself for being so stupid for being friends with them. Every night, everyday of weekend, I'll cry and I can't stop. I'm so stupid kan? I don't know why should I care about this too much, but maybe it's bcs of I've been hurt for too long and I can't stand it anymore. I'm not appreciated :) And always being ignored, abandoned, by them. I'm left out. Is this bcs of I'm the only one yang pakai tudung? IS IT? Okay, fine. I don't care, thats not the reason for me untuk tanggal tudung tu balik. 

I guess, I should be friends with the others now. Cs they gave me that chance to find someone better, I don't wanna blow it. InsyaAllah I'm not gonna be that stupid ever again. I have to make everything right. But THAT'S the freaking problem. Everything I do is wrong, every single thing. I found it so damn weird cs when I'm sad, when I tweet something not good, the guy friends will ask why, starts to care, starts to give some advice. But NONE of my girlfriends will give me that kind of attention. That is exactly why I am sad. None weh, none. Including...my best friend. Siapa tak sedih? Ohh maybe cs they're tired of asking me why, cs they know later on I won't answer. Unlike the guy friends, they'll force me to tell them why. See the difference? 100% lain. 

Sometimes, I just wish the guy friends are my girl friends. But... 

Lastly, if you think I need some attention, yes I really really need attention. From girls, not boys. And I thank you all for reading this. Feel the painnnnn yo. Ok bye!